To whom it may concern

To whom it may concern, these words have been kept written in my heart for a very long time. Allow me to release some feelings and emotions that come with these. Some may be harsh and some are really rude. I just don’t have a pure heart at all. It may be hidden for a while, but it keeps on nagging my mind whenever there is a sight of you. And it pollutes everything. It corrupts my thoughts and attitudes toward you. Our relationship might been severely damaged just because of these notions I’ve been entertaining. It needs to stop.

I want to start anew. That is why I am confessing to you. I want to beg for your understanding. Sorry if I killed you once, twice or thrice in my mind. Now, I wanted to prevent that from happening again. I want to be innocent and naive once again. I want to see you for who you really are and still loves you just the same. Let’s start all over again, and see each other like a clean slate. Pure and clear. No judgments and criticisms, just you and me right now. But first, listen on me with this.

To the person I’ve spent more than half of my life with, I want you to know that I’m doing better. We used to be best friends and we used to curse each other too. We have quite interesting history. You fooled me and I let you. You used me and once again, I made you. Finally you say sorry and now I am hopeful. Things came even more surprising when you tried to restore the relationship you personally bury deep down the ground. Well, that’s you. Let’s start all over again, and see each other like a clean slate. Will you?

To the person who wants me desperately as a friend, I want to feel the same way. But my heart keeps on reminding me the pain and suffering you once caused. I felt so disappointed, betrayed and useless at the same with how you thought you feel for me. I want to get even but I don’t know how. We’re living in shadows of our friends knowing they will misunderstood. It’s been a great friendship so far,but a terrible start to begin with. I need your help. Let’s start all over again, and see each other like a clean slate. Will you?

To the person I came to appreciate, you’ve been so great to me since then. But why was it that I always feel disappointed whenever we’re having a communication. Is it because you need something from me so you better initiate a good, smooth talk? Come on, I’m not stupid. I could sense things. A lot of these feelings are for you. I wouldn’t mind if you just need me, only because I know I need you too. Still, you don’t have the right to abuse me. Myself neither. Let’s start all over again, and see each other like a clean slate. Will you?

To the person I used to share the same faith, how are you? Our intimacy has been deeper than with any other friends. Yet now, I know nothing about you. You have resisted my help and my hellos. You’ve been distant that I cannot call you friend anymore. Do you still want me to? I’ve been true to you and you chose to talk bad things behind my back. What happened? I am just waiting on you. Open up your heart once again, I don’t want to see you hurt. Let’s start all over again, and see each other like a clean slate. Will you?

To the person I’ve known for some time, why haven’t you called lately? We used to talk for 3 straight hours and listen to each others midnight thoughts. You once isolated yourself and came back to me sorry. Is it meant to be recurring? I’m always the one approaching and always the one being rejected. What did I do to deserve such? Are you toying with me? Or if not, please tweet back. I don’t know anything. There’s two of us in this friendship, not just you. Let’s start all over again, and see each other like a clean slate. Will you?

To the person I shared my laughters with, I always wanted to visit you home but I’m uncomfortable if we share the same feelings with each other anymore. Are we now just acquaintances or still the best of friends? I know everything about you, even the secrets you’ve been hardly keeping. That is why I never hesitate to speak to your life. My motive for you will always be good. I know how vulnerable you are and I don’t want to see others taking advantage of you. Let’s start all over again, and see each other like a clean slate. Will you?

To the person who is quick to confess his love for me, I know you realized by now the joke you’ve made. Stop expressing love when you still don’t know how to. Do not over-react over something I showed or shared with you. You need not date every good woman you meet. Please understand that I’ve been single for some reasons and one of those is to protect myself from a guy like you. Thank you and I am sorry. I will treasure every effort you’ve made. Let’s start all over again, and see each other like a clean slate. Will you?

To the person who did so fine in the beginning, and gets me irritated within a month. Why did you need to ruin such a great start? I cannot handle this. We share the same company, the same office, the same table and yet you want more than the friendship I can offer. Sorry to say this, but I think it is so unreasonable that you begun to like me without knowing me. I appreciate the messages and actions you’ve made I thought normal for you, but you need to stop this. I am not ready yet. Let’s start all over again, and see each other like a clean slate. Will you?

A thousand words could express what I’m feeling right now but it’s no better than saying it out loud at your face. I guess, tis only the beginning. I’ll write it down, whenever a sight of you triggers something in my heart. I don’t wanna be the same again. This is how I will heal. This is how we’ll grow. Stay true to me and I will stay true to you. I don’t want a good friend, I just need a real one. Let’s pursue each other. Yes please.

Renew my heart Lord, just like a clean slate.

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